您在那儿过得好吗？=）

今天天气好好噢，心情也因此变得好愉快！所以一大早就选择了走路去LRT站.凉风迎面吹来，望着蓝蓝的天空让我想起了远在天国的您。

我亲爱的外婆，

您在那儿过得好吗？=）

    您离开我们有六个多月了，因为思念您,一直都想给您写信，谈谈心，说说话。虽然不知天国的地址，但还是希望您会收到。对于您的离开，有时候还是没法适应，心情一直未能平静下来。今天，我告诉自己，不许哭，给外婆写信要开心。=’)

    外婆,今天我有努力的过日子哦，这一天，我也过得很开心。似乎也收到了您来自天国的祝福，一定是您在身边守护着我吧。还记得您和外公还在世的时候不管是我们有心还是无心的说出口想吃些什么，只要您会做的，或者是买得到的，你都会在下一个周末准备好，等待我们的到来。有时候却连续准备了两个周末我们都没有空过去探望您，可您还是傻傻的等待着我们的到来。如今，我是多么的怀念。不知天国有没有电话，如果有，请您一定要告诉我号码，我有好多好多的话想对您说也很想再听您对我说“白老虎”的故事。我现在想起，原来我一直都没有仔细的频听您所说的故事内容，原来我每次都只顾着留意您那时脸上的笑容。:')

    说到原谅，外婆，需要您原谅的事情太多了。

    请原谅这几年来，没能陪在您身边。

    曾经在您温暖双腿躺着给您梳头发而入睡的懵懂女孩，曾经因为怕黑总是要您先哄入睡的胆小女孩，曾经与您到河边耕种浇水的女孩，曾经第一次照相紧紧抓住您衣角缩在您身边的女孩，曾经因为和邻家小孩跑出去玩然后给小牛追着跑回家的女孩．．．如今，在您的呵护下，那个女孩长大了。=)  

原来那一天的母亲节就是我最后一次用我自己双手赚回来的钱请您吃一餐也是我跟您一起睡的最后一晚。那晚，你吃了比平时多很多，回到家后还很开心的到处跟表弟还有阿姨说我请您吃饭。我也就很安心的返回了 Kl.在火车上我有跟您通电，可是因为没有网络而听不清楚，所以就挂了。可是我万万没想到我还没踏进家门就接到了家里的电话说您跌倒进院了。您进院的第二天我们全部都赶回去探望您，见您情况有些好转了大家也都放心的回去做工读书了。而，您没留下一句话就走了，而我们都没能见上您最后一面。您一直在等吗？

    您不知道常常让你担心的孙子女们有多么多么地爱您，您说的每一句话，我们不会考虑它是对的错的，都会听，我们尊重您的任何意见，当然，您也从来不会强求我们做不喜欢的事情。每一年的新年，我们都一起吃团圆饭，和您一起拜年，跟您一起欢笑。。可是，以后的每年呢？

    外婆，谢谢您给予我们的一切，您放心的走吧，家里的一切交给您的儿孙们。请在天国一定要注意身体, 不要再生病了哦。我们一直思念您。

  

I love you, mom n dad ^^

世上也只有两个人可以得罪。你给他们脸色看，冲他们发牢骚，你大声呵斥他们，甚至当着他们的面摔碗，他们都不会记恨你。原因非常简单，因为他们是你的父母。=)


我不希望看到如果有一天，

如果有一天，我發現媽媽的廚房不再像以前那麼乾淨；

如果有一天，我發現家中的碗筷好像沒洗乾淨；

如果有一天，我發現母親的鍋子不再雪亮；

如果有一天，我發現父親的花草樹木已漸荒廢；

如果有一天，我發現家中的地板衣櫃經常沾滿灰塵；

如果有一天，我發現母親煮的菜太鹹太難吃；

如果有一天，我發現父母經常忘記關瓦斯；

如果有一天，我發現老父老母的一些習慣不再是習慣時，就像他們不再想要天天洗澡時；

如果有一天，我發現父母不再愛吃青脆的蔬果；

如果有一天，我發現父母愛吃煮得爛爛的菜；

如果有一天，我發現父母喜歡吃稀飯；

如果有一天，我發現他們過馬路行動反應都慢了；

如果有一天，我發現在吃飯時間他們老是咳個不停 ；

如果有一天，我發覺他們不再愛出門……

我真的好想好想抽出多一点点时间跟你们在一起。有时候打电话回家，听到你那沙沙的声音(是不是很累)，真的好想快点回家呆在你们身边照顾你们....

刚刚打电话回家，跟妈妈说我要回家，叫她有空就帮我买回KL的车票，呵呵，听得出她真的很高兴，马上就问我车站几点开始售票，应该马上就去买的吧! ^^

Dear mom and dad,
I want you to know that I love you. I have never been one for soft talk. I have always tried to show a brave, strong face, but down inside I have been easily hurt and never wanted it seen. I am not as brave and strong as I have seemed to be, but your love for me has kept me going over the years.
I want you to know that the many times you were ready to encourage me did something inside me that made me unwilling to give up, especially beginning of this year, first time i calling back home and i cried. Thanks for holding on then, Mom.

I want both of you to know that your prayers for me over these last 20 years have kept me going. It has not been easy for you - and I know how stubborn and obstinate I have been so many times and how you have prayed it through when I might have just given up if I didn't have you behind me praying.
I want you to know that all through our 20 years together I have never stopped loving both of you, although many times I failed to show it by my actions. I cannot tell what lies ahead for us. We may not have all that others may have. But I want you to know that I will be doing everything I can to make you happy and to see that you are cared for in every way. I need your prayers and your love for me; all the little things you have been doing to make life better for me.
I want you to know that I see these little things, and I want to say a big 'thank you' that I should have said so many times before this.
I want you to know that although I might not say these things out loud, they are in my heart, and I want you to know I realize it and I love you for loving me.
I want you to know I need both of you - we need each other. I just wanted you to know how I feel and because I'm not so good with soft words like that I just wanted to take this way to tell you that I love you.
With all my heart. <3

Our Memories!

今天,不知道是什么日子..累到起不了身,天气又跟我作对，一到LRT站就下大雨..有雨伞=没伞,还是成了落汤鸡, but..没关系，整个场面还是要hold住，不能慌,不能慌, hahahaha..not fashion! xP

还好天助我也，下午的课cancel廖,没办法咯...只好自己找节目,结果还是逃不了去唱 K le.. ><''

好喜欢这张照片噢！一定会好好珍惜你们的! ;)

我们一起癫，一起闹，哈哈哈。。大家都唱到好投入，根本就不会怕走音了会不好意思... xD

069 的宝贝们，我爱你们叻！chakiaaaaa 们~~~!!! hahaha :P

答应我，吵架也好，斗嘴也好，开心也好，出气也好，我们都要当大家最好的死党 ;)

爱情是灯，有情是影子，当灯灭了，你会发现你的周围都是影子，朋友是在最后可以给你力量的人...

越是熟的朋友，对话就越粗鲁；越是熟的朋友，行为就越猥琐；越是熟的朋友，开玩笑就越不计较；越是熟的朋友就是要管你；越是熟的朋友，见面少了就越思念；越是熟的朋友，你一有错他就越好不留余地的骂你；越是熟的朋友，不开心他想起的第一个人就是你 ♥

My Family

很久都没有回家跟家人聚一聚咯，突然接到三姐的电话问我要不要办个trip大家一起去holiday下，当时我都不管我当天有没有假期，就叫她帮我留个位子了。。呵呵。。还好没有碰到考试><'' (偶是巨蟹座的,所以难免也会有些恋家情结 :P)

这些就是我的家人啦,只可惜大姐一家人没办法参与我们,真的是美中不足..不过没关系,再等多几年,等我毕业了,一定会带我们全家人一起去旅行的,一个都不能少,这是我对你们还有给我自己的承诺 ;)

大家都傻傻的~~嘻嘻嘻..不过还是很 COOL!! =D

很可爱的一对夫妻 ^^

哇！这张根本就是明星来的!! xP

hahahaha..小妹妹们都不好意思要跟我们拍照，马上掉头走人><''

这个鱼的味道有点忘不了~~~

去泰国玩怎么可能少了massage呢? ;)

有时候我会突然不自信，有时候我会拿不出勇气，有时候我会假装很快乐，有时候我也会任性，我会为小小的事感动得掉泪，我会为小小的事开心得睡不着，我会在伤心的时候听伤心的歌，我也会在开心的时候和在乎我的人分享，一直以来，我都觉得自己不够好，我承认我不算完美，但我很真，我会珍惜身边的每一个人，尤其是默默支持我的家人...虽然大家聚在一起的时间不长，但是这次的旅行都有达到原来的目的啊 =D

My 20th birthday!

Today is my 20th birthday!!! *happy birthday to Meeeeeemeeeeee, happy birthday to me!!!* ^^
Thanks for my birthday celebration Friends, because of you guys, i know that i'm not ALONE!! love you guys!!


It's a special day for me, really really special! I enjoyed every moments with you guys! nnn..the most important is.. i met a new friend today. Its nice to make new friends, as long as you never forget your old ones. =) I wish my "birthday wish" will comes true n i do believe, it WILL, maybe not now, but ONEday or somedays! ;)
Hahahaha..n this year i ate lots of blessed birthday cakes,Special birthday cake from my hostel mates, from my housemates, from my lovely brother, my ex-classmates and from my current classmates too!!   All of you gonna feed me to become " fei mui" izzit?, haha,although my name is fei!! =DDD


I can no other answer make, but, thanks, and thanks my friends.I would maintain that thanks are the highest form of thought, and that gratitude is happiness doubled by wonder. love ya!!! (",)

等待//

其实自己知道,为什么不能向他人一样好好谈一场恋爱...

总有人问你，有对象没？呵呵，没有呢，不可能吧！其实，那是真的，不是没人追，只是没有感觉的，也许有时想谈恋爱，想让自己不再寂寞，可是那个人却没有，不想随随便便的爱了，因为有一种单身叫“宁缺无滥”， 有一种单身只为等待某人...

就只是因为, 太清楚自己是个怎样的一块料,所以不会再轻易地把自己交出去...

就像是,有一天你发现跌倒以后的伤口,会留下疤痕,于是走路时再也不敢大大步的跨出去了...

我在等一个人，

一个愿意走进我的生命分享我的喜怒哀乐，

同时也愿意让我走进他的生命体会他的爱恨情仇的人。

一个不是因为我的什么喜欢我而是因为喜欢我而愿意接受我的一切的人，

一个知道我不完美却依然喜欢我甚至连我的不完美也一并欣赏的人，

一个不在乎别人对他是否赞美而只在意我的肯定与认可的人，

一个即使全世界都与我为敌也会站在我身边宁可背叛全世界也不背叛我人。

*Sometimes*, when I say "I'm okay", I just want someone to look me in the eyes, hug me tight, and say, "I know you're not." =')

First day!

Weather is a great metaphor for life!!!! Sometimes it's a good, and sometimes it's a bad, and there's nothing much you can do about it but carry an umbrella or....  WET! =/
It's hard to believe that I'm so lucky, my first day at Reliance college on 22 March was a rainy day!! nn..great! I got lost at the first day of the fall semester! But anyway, trying hard to convince myself that it was actually a day full of new experiences. ._.''

When I entered the college building, I met new people and was exposed to a different style of learning. It's not unusual to feel rather lost when you first start college. My first day signified the beginning of my career goals. As soon as I entered this new college a serious of my life began! I have to adapt to the new surroundings as quickly as possible to accomplish the sought after degrees..i want to travel around the world!!! ^^v

忘了是什么时候！

不知道什么时候开始...

慢慢的喜欢隐身了，不怎么爱在群里发言了 

不论和多少人在一块，手机总挂着fb，一堆人聚在一块，一人一台手机，各玩各的

同学聚会必修的两个项目：吃饭，KTV

小孩都开始叫自己叔叔或者阿姨了 

虽然经常不大情愿地反驳着：叫姐姐，叫哥哥

永远寂寞，不管你是一人独处时，还是身在人群当中

就像那首歌中唱的一样，孤单，是一个人的狂欢，狂欢，是一群人的孤单

没那么愤青了，遇到不公的时候，会告诉自己，社会本来就是这样 

可以不看电视，但电脑是必需品 

出门蹦达必带三件宝：手机，钥匙，钱 

永远不知道钱花哪了，没怎么吃，没怎么穿 

消极，拒绝长大。不喜欢被人说成熟. 

熟人面前是话唠，生人面前一言不发 

爱好中必定有一项是睡觉 

成天泡在网上，又不知道做什么好。

最常说的一句话是“无聊”,尽管常在网络上花去了大把时间。 

凌晨12点前和很少会入睡 

什么都可以“随便”，因为没那么多时间，也不在意那么多的事情 

毫无理由没有资本的高傲，骨子里却自卑，期待肯定，期待认可，被讨厌做人失败的时候连说话的勇气都没有。

觉得别人不可能了解自己，并以此作为对别人不屑的理由。

因为别人都恋爱了所以自己就恋爱了，更多的是练爱而不是恋爱，然后连自己都开始怀疑曾经对爱情的坚持。 

曾经以为一辈子陪在身边的朋友，某天某月，就突然发现他们都不见了

午夜醒来，才愕然发现，从来都是只有自己一个人

人越成长，越容易孤单..

90后的我们，有很多的梦想，有的实现了有的破灭了.. 　  

90后的我们，有的出名，有的默默无闻。 　  

90后的我们，挣扎过彷徨过，还是挺过来了..

90后的我们，退去青春年幼的智嫩，开始适应社会大家庭..　  

我们的心里都很清楚，我们经历了太多太多.. 

亲情的分与合 　　 爱情的分与合 　　 友情的分与合 　  

曾不顾一切的追求过的，后来变的一文不值得。

父母曾百般阻挠的事，直到自己受伤，才明白，父母原来是对的。 

曾无数次的问过自己，为什么活着？到后来，已经懒得的去想活着的意义。 

曾为了爱情可以不好好的读书，到后来为了工作可以丢下爱情。 　　 

现在是否还记得最初的梦想？或者说，还有多少人，一直坚持着自己年少时的梦想。 

在家里，父母对我们百依百顺，出了家门，我们对社会百依百顺。 

看不惯的事情也就渐渐习惯了，不知道这种习惯是好是坏？ 

我甚至不知道我现在的梦想应该是什么？但有一点的是肯定的，不会再做一些年少轻狂的梦了。    

独自体会，成熟的滋味。   

Everything NEW

What's life like at the age of 20 years old? It's the age of making choices? Time for the realization of plans? Dreams and hopes? Or all comes in together? =O
For boy maybe it's the age of starting evaluating and choosing the person one wants to spend his life with, the time for making a foundation of the future. Then,what is life like for a 20 year-old girl? For a girl it is the age of LOVE ? It is the age when everything is just Beginning and in “blossom” :]

Finally..this Tuesday my class start. I am now beginning a new life in a whole new environment surrounded by people i really do not know and that's a scary feeling not knowing if you'll be fit in with the other students around you. But i believe i can :P

Sometimes it takes a tragedy to remind you of what is really important in life.  I was so sad thinking about all the experiences in life..but anyway..they're GONE!! I fall, I rise, I make mistakes, I live, I learn, I've been hurt but I'm Alive. I'm human, I'm not perfect but I'm thankful ! yeah!! ^.^v

Dreams

Dreams A dream is a hope, a wish, and an aspiration. The day you die is the day you stop dreaming  true statement. =)
Try to Imagine that your life without dreaming...it sure would be insipid! I believe If a person have a dream or goal he sure will be a better person with much better life.

I have a DREAM too..ever since I was a child i dreamed of becoming a successful woman. Success to me is when I have my own career and a family of course. I'm determined to have it all. Education is very important to me. I believe knowledge is the utmost valuable tool for life and to survive in this world, therefore going to college and getting an education, telling my self at least get a certificate, will give me a great knowledge. The knowledge I gather will help my path to success. I had tried my best to make it become reality by maintain a high GPA.  But something happened and it gonna change my life forever! I have to start it from the beginning..again..

Of course...

I'm certain nothing will defeat me, because i will not give up on my self, or my dreams to success. I have to find a job to settle all my college fees, I need to try hard to reduce my family burden towards me. It's not easy working a part time job and going to college at the same time. But nothing good comes easy and I'm determined to work hard for it. As of now, i will join Reliance college and going to get my degree in tourism. I'm ready to face any obstacle that comes my way.  My family is the most important to me. My success will not be completed if I don't have a family to share my life with. A house full of laughter would be my ultimate success. I want to give  better life to my mother and father too. They have sacrificed their dreams for my dreams and I want to take good care of them.

We all have our own life to pursue, our own kind of dream to be weaving. And we all have some power to make wishes come true, as long as we keep believing! One day..i will make my dream to become Reality! I believe!! ;)

Dear H

My first blog! special for you H!

For me, a good friend is someone we can count on, as well as being so much more. ;)
H is a friend that I can relax and just hang out, have fun and share our innermost thoughts, deep dark secrets, lofty and noble goals, or our hopes, joys and fears. I enjoyed myself very much when i hagging out and catching up with H...especially when we do the stupids and crazy things..haha..nnn Yeah!! One thing for sure, i'm proud to say it loud that H is my Friend!

H allows me a safe space to share my deepest thoughts and needs without worry of being judged, criticized or made to feel silly for feeling the way i do. We cheer each other on and laugh(gossiping) together, and just plain commiserate and listen to each other. If one day you feel like crying, call me, i can't promise that i can make you laugh, but i can try and give you some advises too, I promised!

That's why friends are friends...

Friendship is the hardest thing in the world to explain. It's not something you learn in school. But i'm so lucky!
I had learned the meaning of friendship with H. You're special in my heart too, lets us make our dreams come true, i love you H!